Saturday, January 22, 2005
(7:16 PM) | Anonymous:
On the Future: Another Confessional Post.
I was accepted to the MA in Philosophical Theology at Nottingham in late October. I have yet to accept their offer because I want to wait and see if any of the state-side schools award me funding. To be honest, the program there really interests me, especially Philip Goodchild, and it leaves open the possibility of either doing my Ph.D. there or looking into completing it at the Centre for Research in Modern European Philosophy. Though I would venture to guess that I am still more of a believer than many of my other friends, I don't hold much hope out for the Church or even care much about its doctrines anymore. Regardless, something about theology or the practice of religion still tarries with me. It reminds of Deleuze when he once asked during a seminar on Spinoza, "Why is philosophy always so compromised with God?" Of course Deleuze and his philosophy was not compromised with God, after all God is a lobster (I was tempted to write merely, but that would be completely unfaithful), still that question resonates within me.It has always struck me as odd when people asked me why I did philosophy, or what I'm going to do with it when I graduate. It's never really been an intelligible question, much like when people ask me why I married at such a young age. I can give what appear to be real answers, but usually it comes out of the script of the situation or I'm just trying to be clever. The real answer remains even a secret to me, though it surely is some other within me. If Nottingham is the right place for me still remains a secret to myself, regardless of the reasons for and against such a move.
