Friday, June 27, 2008
(12:01 AM) | Adam Kotsko:
Friday Afternoon Confessional: Caring is CreepyI confess that I have read as many contemporary works on my dissertation topic as I am able to handle for now and that I want to begin an initial draft of the first chapter. I confess that the accelerated dissertation schedule I have set for myself alternately seems to be insane and to be the only way for me to maintain my sanity.
I confess that the standard dissertation format, at least in theology -- in which one plows through chapter after chapter of summary of the recent debate, then enjoys the release valve of the final "constructive" chapter, which in any rational system would be the beginning of the book rather than the (tenuously connected) end of it -- seems to be pretty soul-crushing for all involved.
I confess that I'm getting fatigued from reading Agamben, though I may well be reading his masterwork.
I confess that I'm not eating enough fruits and vegetables. I confess that in the two weeks since I "started jogging," I have gone jogging three times.
I confess that while out with a friend on Tuesday night I suddenly fell into a spell of intense loneliness, tinged with despair. It remained consistent all day Wednesday as well, dissipating somewhat on Thursday. I confess that writing about it here appears not to have helped.