(12:41 AM) | Adam Kotsko:

Friday Afternoon Confessional: A Whole New World

I confess that I'm pretty happy that I finished my Origen notes at this relatively "early" hour. I confess that it's been a long time since I've stayed up really late to do something school-related.

I confess that I'm disturbed by how often I have Christmas songs in my head. It's never the religiously-oriented ones -- always the Santa Claus-oriented, consumerist ones.

I confess that I'm glad it's starting to feel like fall. The weather when long-sleeved shirts are first necessary is great. I especially enjoy finally being able to sleep with all the covers (I didn't have air conditioning in my room this summer, so that has not been possible for me for months). "Light jacket" weather is my idea of a good time, but I don't have a proper winter coat. Man, it was really cold last winter, and icy, too. Once, while we were moving into the Logan Square HQ, I literally fell on my ass from a standing position -- I have no idea how it happened.

I confess that I drank coffee too late tonight. I confess that for me, drinking a lot of coffee can closely approximate the effects of drunkenness.

I confess that I let people down sometimes. I confess that when I'm feeling stressed out, or when I have a lot to do, I prefer to just be left alone. I confess that sometimes I just want to be left alone even if I feel no particular stress and have a totally manageable amount of work to do. I confess that I haven't felt like a very "good person" lately.

I confess that while it may have been defensible not to work during September, it was kind of dumb of me not to at least start the job search before then -- I should definitely know by now that one does not begin work immediately upon starting a job search. I confess that the thought of working for $9.00 an hour sounds totally ridiculous and depressing to me. I confess that I took a really serious look at the Craigslist ad for a chiropractic office that needed a receptionist.

I confess that I feel really really good about the Nietzsche presentation that I gave Wednesday night and that I'm excited about the paper topic I've chosen and that it's really great to have been able to pick a topic this early on in the course.

I confess that I have every Godspeed "found sound" memorized, word for word, with all the inflections and everything, because it is absolutely the perfect music to listen to while studying -- particularly while staying up late to finish something. "I'm expressing myself in your court and there is nothing you can do about it! You think you're God because you have a robe? Well you're not!"

I confess that, yes, I went overboard, way overboard, in the "crossed-out part."

I confess that this is one of those weeks one is glad to get "over with."

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