I really want to take a break from reading or writing anything on the internet. There is just too many arguments to keep track of and the cacophony of voices is really killing my study of the philosophical canon. Either it's Robert KC Johnson and his bitching about the latest injustice done against conservatives in academia or it's the continuing war of annoyance between The Valve and Long Sunday. I'm tired of having my views attributed to Adam and having to worry about screwing up his academic career. Then, of course, there is the lovely Troll of Sorrow, who may or may not be actively working to assassinate me. Though it seems the newest trick is to actually talk to him, I still can't stand him and hope he dies or gets serious help. There is still the Vandy boys (I won't call them a school or they may finally kill me) and my constant badgering them about religious pluralism (a question they don't seem to be interested in, as is their choice). My continuing alienation from regular philosophy types, like Jared, because I, for whatever reason, still take religious questions seriously. It's all very hard to keep track of and it feels, ultimately, like banging one's head against a large wall. I already work 60 hours a week, failed to do a decent translation, and continue to fail at doing any academic work I can be proud of: do I really need to involve myself in more activities that make me hate my life?

I don't think so. But I also know me and I know that I'll find myself sucked into this somehow. It's either my holy quest to be above reproach (not hardly) or it is some twisted cry for help (oh God, maybe Chief Jason is right and I am like the Troll of Sorrow!). I want to find a way to disconnect myself from these conversations because they aren't helping me to think. They just cause blockage. Is this the academic state? Am I cut out for this shit?

I'm pretty sure I'm going to try and cut myself off. Though I still think Sean McCain still doesn't get it and KC Johnson is still too smug and the war against theory is really just a front for a war against all non-Anglo-American philosophy, what I really want to do is read and study. I just want to have time to read and I'd like a few friends to talk about it with (that's not going to happen if I continue to find ways to isolate myself). Anyway, this is all to say that I think I'm going to be done here at the Weblog (as if I haven't been for some time) and thank you to those who've left comments in the past. I apologize to those who have had to read the bad grammar week after week as they scroll through to try and find Adam's newest post. It's been fun and maybe I'll be back after my intensive therapy under Jared T. Sinclair. Once I finally accept that there is no Big Other I may be back. I, of course, still plan on participating in the Confessional and Tuesday Hatred.

I can just only hope this doesn’t turn into one of those things where I say I’m done only to come back 200 times worse.